everything's so bloody crammed up inside my brain.

i need a form of relief like, right now.something that can temporarily remove all my worries, stress, fears,uncertainties,just EVERYTHING horrible and upsetting i have stuck inside me now, and to have that 24hours of pure fun, before returning to reality.maybe removing my brain wouldnt be such a bad idea either.

everyone's going, oh you'll do fantastically well this term.just pray to God, he'll guide you.youre so smart, sure can ace your exam one la.aiya, just sacrifice abit lo.its the final stretch anyway.

everyone thinks im so smart.everyone thinks im so darn good.i think im going to pop anytime soon.like this balloon which you blow up till it bursts.

stop filling my mind with crap ok?ive got enough to worry about already.

my head hurts from everything.my heart hurts from everything.lets see..screaming?no that wont do.my parents will come running to me with a chopper.going out?no wait, that requires time, and i DONT have the luxury of it.chilling out at home?SURE, if my every move wasnt under scrutiny of the stupid camera.

i swear, when this is over, im really going to go crazy.i dont care how to do it and how im going to do it, but if you're going out to have some fun after mid-years, let me know.i need a break.before this stupid vicious cycle starts again.

i think the suck-egging twisted ankle did something to my mood.sheesh.

my god.i hate this feeling.

anyone interested in phantom of the opera?cause seriously, im soo bored at home i wouldnt mind it.

<3 cassie

i love you my sweetheart.thanks for trusting me.i'll always be here for you,so just come to me should you need a shoulder.and thanks for listening today.its the first time i actually let any of this out.somehow i realised we are very similar in thought.and i guess also because if i didnt let it out,the wirings inside me might get overheated.dont give up me dear.you should always strive okay?dont let one rotten egg spoil the entire basket.it was because my mum told me that we always have to move on and not let our perspective of a person change our whole way of life, that i promised to try and not get affected by it.i guess i did change, in a way.i hid my feelings more.but that doesnt mean you should too.cause what i did was a mistake,i find it hard to show my real feelings now.life is precious.grab onto it while you still can.

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