con camp was fun and all.and a whole new different experience.

but more importantly, it made me open my eyes wide.made me see my self in a new perspective.i realised that things dont always go as planned, and you really gotta keep working on a relationship if you wanna make it work.how easy it seems, for things to just fall apart.unexpected, unknowingly, unwantedly.maybe to the other party, it was necessary,yet to the other it was confusing, heart-breaking.

im not ready to let it go.i dunno why, but this isnt something to give up so easily.one and a half years didnt exactly mean nothing to me you know.

i really thought that youd tell me than keep to yourself and keep me guessing whether or not i was really being that shitty.

im sorry dear.cause i dont want things to end up all horribly.but then again, maybe im wishing too hard.

that ignorance was frightening.obviously i gave it the benefit of the doubt but it turns out it did deserve my fear after all.

i cant lose you.i really cant.

im just terribly sorry for whatever i did to make you uncomfortable.

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