its just sometimes.
everything goes perfectly OKAY, and yet you still come back feeling like shit, dragging your moping body from one venue to the next, wonderng why the hell you cant just go home, dig under the covers and sleep.


mummy says its lack of sleep.
my brain tells me pms.
but i think its more.
i just dont know what.
WHAT WHAT WHAT.

recently its been work study mug mug study work.repeat procedure (x100). my grades are
fluctuating like mad.what i usually get Bs in i get Us and vice versa.
sometimes i just dont know why im still holding on.
everything else is being pushed aside.piano, yc, bunnies, climbing, socialising, family.
the ironical thig is, they dont really mind im spending so much time away from them.
getting too hard to handle maybe?

maybe it was the stupid incident last week thats made me feel crappy for the entire week.
the soreness im having to face being in the home everyday.
i dont know.
GRAA.





i dnt know why im complaining. on the outside, my life is still perfect.
im getting As.
i get to eat tau huey with my lovelies.
im saving up enough money for the end of promos.
i got past my interview for work shadowing.
i have managed to run 7.2km all the way twice in a week, with a 10 minute improvement second time round.amazing, considering the previous record before this was only 3+km.
another 10km run awaits me this sun. it equals meetig up with old friends.
i manage to incoporate different aspects into m life rather well.


where are You.
i dont know if You would consider this despair,
but i feel desperate.
i wish that You could be with me and make it more clear that im never alone.

cassie.







you know, you may not be my eyecandy anymore, but youre still hot.

and you.stop making me more confused.

and US.
whats going to happen to us?
i dont want it to end just like that, you know.
it makesmy heart hurt.

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