you know how life justs zooms past the older you get?
that its passing by so quickly now just scares me further, will it speed up when i hit 20, 30, 40.
if i even reach there.
because then again, it could just end like that.
*snap*

i dont know if ill end up taking medicine.
i dont know if ill be in singapore in one half years time.
i dont know if ill ever become what i wanna be.
i dont know if ill be successful.
i dont know if ill ever get married.
i dont know if ill ever have kids.
i dont know.

so.
as coach says,
when life gives you lemons,we make lemonade.
and if they decide to give us oranges, we make orange juice.

i live only once for goodness sake.
i wanna be irrational for once.
ive always done my utmost to be careful, being afraid of falling.
i guess thats good, but im starting to think im missing out on all the fun.
i want to do totally weird, crazy, bizzare, physically, mentally and heart breakingly mad stuff.
anything i never dared to do.
-the jumping-across-hdb-roofs sport
-travel the world to climb (just like ben)
-fail ALL my exams.thatd be interesting.(but of course having to suffer awfully AWFUL consequences)
-eat 3 tubs of ice cream
-let myself become a dumb brown-haired girl, then maybe let myself get swept off my feet by some handsome dude who flirts around with other girls.HA.(as if thats ever gonna happen)
-not have pride and ego, for once.

converses just became my favourite footwear.
its fun trying to talk to you. ((: you make life ever the interesting. and i see you like challenges too, you little monkey.

toothpick.

10:21 PM ·