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Saturday, December 12, 2009

omg they let me access!

http://www.thisiscassie.livejournal.com

shifted!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

when i tried accessing my laptop with the fingerprint suite, it didnt want to let me through cause my blazing 39.4 fingers were too hot.

the worst thing about being sick,
is having, and goddamnit WANTING, to force yourself into believing you arent.

Thursday, July 16, 2009
life is tough.


i cant stand it when all the ee-eff-eff-oh-are-tee goes down the drain.
you know, ive never used the term before,
but this, THIS,
is a FML moment.


Monday, July 13, 2009
WHAT?!

when the doctor suggested he prescibe me some tranquilisers,
i knew id gone wrong somewhere.
but then again its not like i didnt know it wasnt coming.

Saturday, July 11, 2009
History

is a boring subject. time and again, in all aspects.
who wants to be haunted with it after facing that daunting task of finally letting something go and be?
and then again i suppose its how LIFE keeps going, taunting us to keep its entertainment level high enough to ensure its continuity.
but its boring, and its sickening, yet its so inevitable.

IDEALISM
doesnt exist in the world.
or so ive been told many times.
well, why not?
'because in this world, there's no such thing as meritocracy, equality, and fairness.'
yeah,
its about the people you know, the people you grew up with, the people your parents expose you to, yours and their ability to pull as many strings as they can.
its never about being smart, compassionate and hardworking.

elitism is disgusting from the outside, hell yeah, yet when you finally break into that circle, nobody ever has any intention to come out of it.

there's something terribly wrong with this world, and what makes it worse, is that im too insignificant, too unimporatant, and i dont hang out with the rich and famous to make a noticeable difference at all.
WHY, can i ask, is life just SHIT.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009
The Show - Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why

Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool out of love
Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot in the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the signs
And syncronize in time
It's a joke, nobody knows
They got a ticket to the show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone I've tried, and I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze, and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
Can't do it alone I've tried, but I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show

Dum De Dum, Duh Dum De Dum
Just enjoy the show
Duh Dum De Dum, Duh Dum De Dum
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back

Just enjoy the show

and what happens if the show turned out horribly wrong?
the uncertainties are killing me,
and i AM scared.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009
when you try to study, and nothing goes in.

confidence is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

grass is always greener on the other side, because it has more shit on it.

and free assessments are never accurate.
you even gotta PAY for a levels damnit.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009
since when was a fat woman ever considered hot?

fuck it.
so freakin ridiculous.
stop lying to all the lovely women out there okay.

Sunday, June 07, 2009
a weekend of love.

canon EOS 5D ZOMG.

corde spilling the drinks all over her. CLASSIC i tell you.my bunny sisters and best friends. :D
i look so. siwen in this photo :Dand this is pretty pretty. (: our beng with his left side earring. :D
and this was completey unplanned, of which facial expressions turned out to be completely symmetrical! the family of 08/09.


this song has overwhelmed me once again.

Father I Thank You

Father, I thank You, for all that You’ve done
You gave Your Son freely for me
And I praise You for calling me, drawing me near
Out of blindness You caused me to see

Spirit of life, You are God's holy fire
You've kindled my heart with Your blaze
And I know You're refining me, changing my life
And by faith You're revealing Your ways

Jesus I need You, as Lord of my life
I give all I have unto You
Lord I want to come under Your heavenly hand
And to praise You In all that I do

have a good week ahead loves.


Sunday, May 31, 2009
DID YOU KNOW?

that this post would come straight after entry 200?
that the previous pot was technically 4 days late?
that it summarises my week in pictures?
that it is being posted when blogger here has sunburns all over her?
that blogger typing this has changed her blog's main picture?
im sure you didnt, so im telling you now. (:



Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Entry 200: what happens to the extent of questions that demand absolute answers?

through this whole long, tedious, energy-draining week, one word pulled me through.
AGAPE.
for no apparent reason at all, out of the blue, and completely not within context, this, WORD (i dont think it should be degraded to a mere word, its more like an emotion, a whole new inspirational being) kept filling me up.
how unselfish, how undeterred by societal views, how BIG, and how unconditional.
there isnt a way in which i see myself ever ever achieving that.
a love so non judgemental, unaccusing.loving, purely BECAUSE you love.


John 15:13
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.


as much as people say, yes, im willing to die for you, how often do they truly understand the full weight of that? more often than not, how many DO say that in the first place.
without a doubt, i can say i love my friends. they are so important in so many ways. awesome support bases, people to go crazy and wacky with and study pals. but when asked for these major sacrifices, i may just get cold feet all over.


im very lucky.oh so lucky, that i have someone, some GREAT BEING, that LOVES me, so so so much more than a friend can.someone i can trust in completely, someone who will always be listening.fortunate enough, for me to take it all for granted every so often.
and so this week, when i thought about agape, it made me realise why i shouldnt dwell on things that meant so little in the great scheme of things.



having our last official training, didnt exactly produce an ending bang i was so desperate for to happen. ill save details for another post when i make a full dedication to these people who have been the core of my 2 years, but today made me realise how much sweat all of us have contributed, and as cliche as it sounds, to look how far we've come and achieved.and YOU guys know exactly what im talking about.though the school may go bitch and procrastinate, we KNOW.


this term has passed faster than ever, seeing what my family has come to saddens me, and watching my schoolwork deteriorate just the same doesnt make it any easier coming to terms with.sometimes i just dont know what they want, and now even what I want anymore, my life is becoming a playboard for others to throw a dice and move wherever they want.
but He'll help me through this.
1 Corinthians 13:12
Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
He has a plan for me.


this week has had its funny share of people.
MR TAN and his ultra super cute (and lousy) pronounciation:
  • tam fries (time flies)
  • mitsabeeshee cahs (mitsubishi cars)
  • exorcist events (exhaustive events)
  • sadistics (statistics)

and there's more.


this week has also had its moments of pure surprise, and pleasantness.
and i thank Him for that.for being with me every step of the way.
through the 10 ARDUOUS (seriously man) kilometres at changi point, and up two walls, never failing to provide me with energy and strength, confidence, determination and a thirst to prove myself.

my friends who have been my most ardent supporters through the whole messy parents issue, the endless competitions during the month, and study buddies. i see so much of God in all of you, and i thank you for that.

today hanz was having a heated discussion with moses about free will. and i was in the mrt, and i thought to myself, that i dont want to try and understand God, because knowing that He loves me unconditionally should be IS more than enough.

this concludes post 200 friends.
XOXOXO


Thursday, May 21, 2009
this is post 199.(:

i dont want to blog two day in a row, but.


i have finally figured out how to save my screen.THANKEW.

me likey this one. its cooooooool. and it was a nice route to climb.



sums names this ANTICIPATION. i like the angle.


constipation sial.
spatula did it! (:

the boys have surprisingly more facial expressions than the girls.

X I

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my brudda looking more like a kingkong than ever. XE


tomorrow is GIRLS SOCCER FINALS VS VJC ZOMG and i am freakin out.GO GIRLFRIEND!

i tried studying today, and ended up doing a ridiculously pathetic amount of math.
actually i think puttin up so many pictures spoil the effect, but i dont want to blog everyday.

ogay im going to sleep now im dinner-ing with SPOONZ tomorrow, and im seeing my SECRETHANDSHAKEPARTNER and GOHSERYANG on saturdayyyyyyyyyy!yummymummy.

nightieswaighties.

OH OH OH! photos courtesy of sumsng.


Wednesday, May 20, 2009
hi sums. (: i hope this shows enough face.


win.




it was an amazing weekend.

sums you are keeping me awake you lousy boy.
goodnight, ill post up your photos soon. :D


Saturday, May 16, 2009

i am freakin freaking scared now, i swear i can almost pee in my pants.
but no.

i've come a long way from one year ago, and whatever happens tomorrow,
it doesnt matter cassie.
im leaving it all up to Him, and letting Him decide.


allez.

Sunday, May 10, 2009
maybe this can become a weekly routine.

i slept alot this week, because i kept getting woken up by the lightning and thunder at 2 in the morning. then i would just sit in bed and try not to feel scared, and erasing all the deja vu moments out of my mind, and willing for them to just leave me alone.
ugly pimple. XP
the last of the ponytail. for now. i am NOT a trex. i think.

finally.


the week has had it moments of joy, tears and screams(ahem), but its really missing out somethin important: my mum.
admidst all thats been going on, i think im losing her.

so many times people think life is so superficial. thats its really so easy to see through and that they think they actually get it.
if you could see through it, why still call it a facade?
if what you see really was what you got, actors and actresses would lose their jobs.
and id be the happiest person alive.
but no.that never is the case.

this is how my upcoming week will be like.

kaboom.

welcome to my life.


Sunday, May 03, 2009
ask me.

a pretty (,) dirty weekend.








xoxos.

Monday, April 20, 2009
what's left of the broken pieces?

and i keep on waiting,
waiting on the world to change.

Saturday, April 11, 2009
and what do you do when it all comes down to this?

you wouldnt want me to be your girlfriend because id be the worst of its kind.
so how about just removing me from your mind entirely?
because you wont stand a chance.

Thursday, April 09, 2009
zomg zomg zomg zomg zomg.

first place!
((:
i totally lovelovelovelovelovelovelove you guys to the core.

shutup about pw i dont wanna hear about it.):

Saturday, April 04, 2009
gosh i really miss you, sucker. ):